To live my Childhood again!

When I was young,, with enthusias and fun
Desperate to grow and be mature.

I had talent,followed my passion
I had dreams, shaped my fashion.

But as I grew, I changed my view.
No longer cherished the sunset or admired the dew.

No longer counted the stars, no longer felt the breeze
Love was overtaken by purpose, and future by expertise.

One sunset I realized, how lucky I was
when love never basked in profit or loss.

How soothing it was to sleep on my mother's lap
how carefree twas, to dance,play and have a nap.

Where's that innocence, where's that joy..
where's that happiness I found between my toys!

Where's that bloom for an oriole's quest
Where's that gloom for a broken nest.

Again I am as desperate as I was in my tender sane..
Not for Cinderella's heels but dancing in the rain
 to live, my childhood,  again!







Like a Humming Bird

"Once upon a time a terrible fire broke down out in a forest. A huge woodland was suddenly engulfed by a raging fire.  Frightened all the animals fled their homes and ran out of the forest. As they came to edge of a stream they stopped to watch the fire and felt very helpless and powerless.Everyone thought they could do nothing about the fire except - the little hummingbird!.

This particular Humming bird decided it  would do something. It swooped into a stream and  picked a few drops of water in her petite beak, went to the forest and put onto the fire. Went back to the stream and did it again and kept going back , again and again. All the other animals watched some in disbelief some in amazement. Some uttered - Why is she bothering? How can she even dream it will help?
Other said to her- You are too little humming bird, Even we are helpless before this massive fire rage.  Your beak is too tiny . Your wings may burn. With only a drop you can't put out this fire.  None of us can!

And as the animals stood around disparaging the little bird’s efforts, the bird notices how helpless and hopeless they looked. Then one of the animals shouted and challenged the humming bird in a mocking voice, “What do you think you are doing?”.

And the humming bird, without wasting a time or loosing a beat looked back and said - “I am doing the best I can.” ""


As i read this story often told by Wangari Maathai- founder of the Green Belt Movement and first African Noble Peace Prize Winner,I was touched. I was shaken because it somehow rekindled the desires within me to make a difference on this planet which were somewhere set aback by conventional notions. When I was young , whenever I saw a pauper on the railway station, I used to tell myself-- the day I become big, I can change his Life!!


In India, by 1857, the britishers had captured Most of the parts of India. While most of the Kings surrendered feeling helpless and hopeless,Lakshmibai chose  to fight.  She fought and she fought bravely.

41 year old Huang, lost his arms in a terrible electric shock accident. But this didn’t stop him from following his dreams. He now paints with a brush in his mouth.

83 year old travels from Bali to Kolkata to sell fries. After Lung Cancer took her son away 5 years ago, to make ends meet, at age of 77 she started making fries and selling them.

Don’t these people share the same spirit of the humming bird? So what, if they are not extuingishing a fire somewhere, they are doing the best they can!


So what if I am not so young to start my life on a new way from before? So what if too young to start anything on my own? So what If you are a middle aged man with responsibilites of family? If I do the best I can, Can't I make a difference?


And here goes another story which reaffirmed my new beliefs.

There was a man taking a morning walk at or the beach. He saw that along with the morning tide came hundreds of starfish and when the tide receded, they were left behind and with the morning sun rays, they would die. The tide was fresh and the starfish were alive. The man took a few steps, picked one and threw it into the water. He did that repeatedly. Right behind him there was another person who couldn't understand what this man was doing. He caught up with him and asked, "What are you doing? There are hundreds of starfish. How many can you help? What difference does it make?" This man did not reply, took two more steps, picked up another one, threw it into the water, and said, "It makes a difference to this one."



The difference I can make is  to teach  an illiterate kid of my maid who comes along...or  starting an initiative with my friends for teaching a few kids of a small village. What if I can’t open an NGO while running a whole organization of 3 people in my family, the best I can do is - ask any of them - Can I be of any service in your good cause??

What if I can’t travel far or go to fields, the best I can do start with my own community! And what if I can’t convince my whole community to come together for a cause, I can make a difference from my home by not throwing the chewing gum wrapper on the road!

What if I am alone, I will do the Best I can and someday I will be like the humming bird!

The Second World


A chilly morning of 26th Jan - (Indian Republic Day) in the upright northern part of India.Immaculately dressed in my shining white school dress, strolling to and fro between my Balcony and room recalling points about India's Yesterday and Present rehearsing for my speech, talking glories about  country's development and modernisation, I happened to  trace  - an old man. An Old man -  as old as rusty dreams  of thousands of slum dwellers still awaiting for pucca houses, as hopeful as a 9 yr. old child selling tea in an iron kettle on a busy station, and as silent as as a drowning sun. And seeing him what  I recalled was the character  - "Kabuliwalah"  of Rabindranath's epic tale who roamed streets with a big bag stuffed with raisins and nuts. A bunting of  small  flags fluttered in themselves seemed to shiver in the cold wind. 

Returning back to my speech , My inner voice questioned - The development which I am going to praise my country about - has it touched all? Has it penetrated this flag sellers life? If yes, then old  helpless man has to travel on foot on a chilly morning to earn his bread and butter for the day. How much would he be earning? I started calculating - 2 flags for 3 Rs.. Even if he has 50 flags- makes it 75 . 75  minus the cost at which he would have purchased those 50 flags would be his income for the day in case he is able to sell all 50 flags. !. I sighed and continued revising my speech which spoke of shining India. 

Shining India ! Yes, Can't you see India glittering with Top MNC's , massive Industrialisation , Expanding markets, Increased GDP , Glossy Shopping malls , Fly overs being built across the cities, , can't you see my country shining??

Yes, it is but  somewhere, behind those  Finely Finished structures , Mighty Industrial plants  , and world class developments - lies somewhere the blood and sweat of a thousand workers who are born and buried somewhere beneath the foundations.

 The story of such an exploitation can be dated back to the time when "Shahjahan" built his magnificent Taj Mahal. It is said that soon after the "karigars" finished the structure , their hands were cut  so that they  could not build another one . 

Well, frankly their  is no evidence- for such a treatment, the  dark reality which lingers in the present perhaps shall open our eyes. 

How many of us know that ,that agricultural lands of even less than 2 hectares,sometimes the one and only possession are  used forcibly sometimes to make a way for transportation of materials or for laying pipelines leaving the helpless farmers jobless .While industrial pollution changes the colour of water(which is provided to them) and contaminates the air, chemicals from factories gift them a cluster of diseases to suffer from. One such example can be quoted here is the case of NATHKUVA village of Gujarat. While working in the NGO I learnt that the villagers have been facing devastating effects from the noxious fumes and fluoride wastes emitted by a "Carbon credits" awarded industry-Gujarat Flurochemicals Ltd. 

A documentary named- "Buddha weeps in jadugoda " talks about the devastating effects of Uranium mining , which has lead to congenital defects in new born, disabilities , miscarriages,impotency  and skeletal deformities.

The word "development" perhaps has become synonyms with "irony". While our GDP increases by selling Uranium, the word development come across as slap on faces of villagers for being an inhabitant of a village which has been chosen for "development". They suffer because they don't leave their home and land and migrate to city as bonded labourers when suggested to do so...

But who says my country is worst??

Let's talk of the shopping capital and the hottest tourism spot of Middle East. Dubai. The city which adorns the pride of having the Tallest Building of the world - Burj Khalifa  has a dirty little secret only some of us are  aware about. Behind Dubai's breathtaking buildings, is an army of exploited migrant workers for modern day slavery. Poor  workers from India,Pakistan and Bangladesh promised good earnings are exported in thousands by agents and are forced into modern day slavery on the name of employment. Hundreds of  thousand workers are slave under temperatures of 48 degree Celsius at an elevation which leaves us stunned every time we see them unveiled. After tolling  till late  evening , late at night they are taken back to their  dingy camps located in the middle of the desert  where they are flocked like sheep  with 7-8 people in a single room  and plate of onion,tomatoes ,chillies and bread to end their day with. They are treated unfairly, health jeopardised and their passports confiscated by the agencies so that they cannot go back. The number of deaths from heat exhaustion,overwork and suicides  was counted till 971 in 2005, after which the consulates were asked to stop counting.

The purpose of the above mentioned cases is not to leave you in grief, but somewhere its good to open our  eyes towards the second world which is engulfed in the dark shadows of mightiest dreams.

While we count our GDP and celebrate the glitter of gold, Sometimes,somewhere while  standing  in tall sky high  ,  whenever we think that the world is at our feet , its fair to realise that  behind our altitude lies numerous stories of tear and sweat because Truth is in a place which most of the times , we  can't see. . 

Sometimes I dream...



Sometimes....
       I dream to sway on the branches...
       branches swinging fearless with   leaves so pure
       to lift me swiftly towards the mighty sky
       like a bird breezingly leaves to soar

Sometimes...
       I dream of  landing on the moon
       the sparkling and vibrant  cresecent moon
       finding myself amidst stars as I open my eyes
       seeking  the horizon where the brightness lies

Sometimes...
       I dream of floating on the cloud
       billowed with radiance- the  sea of clouds
       the clouds so vibrant as they form my cushion
       to spell away the illusions which had long,  fogged my vision

Sometimes....
      I dream of landing on the tide                      
      and sitting like a beaver waiting to glide
      and as tides take me down and waves lift me up
      my heart awakens with thoughtful stride....

                  Dreaming is like a bud yet to bloom 
                  like a hope of  ray born ...to dispel the gloom 
                  but neither a bud is as fragnant as the flower so bloomed
                  nor the ray alone brightens the  darkest room
                  
                   Neither the moon enlightens forever 
                   nor the stars would have shone
                   till the mighty sun wouldn't  have
                    taken its throne
                  

                  So if you have dreamt to  fly and glow like a sun
                  but the journey seems long and  have miles to run
                  first flight may demand efforts,pain,bruises and burns
                  but once you have started and struggled like none
                  before you realize......
                 
                              you are shining like a Sun..!  
                  
                 
         
                



I am feeling lucky!!!

I still remember the day of my childhood, when I irritatingly discarded a newly-gifted doll because I somehow didn't like her hairstyle.  My mom next day gave it away to  my maid's daughter who often used to accompany her mother and play while her mother worked. And as soon she was given the doll, i discovered enlightened eyes and profound gush of happiness on her face. She hugged the doll tight and chuckled with happiness and left to her home with her new family member. I over heard the next day,that my discarded doll was being treated like a queen by the children of the slum. Even though, at that age of immaturity  , I could infer that my discarded belongings are a source of joy to them- I failed to understand a much deeper meaning behind. 

Now let me pull you out from my past and bring you  to my present. A college going girl- with piles of assignment to be submitted  by the the end of the weekend . And when you talk of assignments, how can you afford to forget our great Savior-mighty almamator - GOOGLE!! Whenever I sought Google's help for completing anything or rather beginning anything ;P - I somehow managed to catch a glimpse of  a useless button "I am feeling lucky".Even though i knew what was it all about - (if you really feel lucky ^-^ and trust google, you click on it and you will be straightaway taken to a single result which google feels matches your search criteria most accurately) ,I,ignored it as usual.

.Mr. Google!  Are you kidding me??? 

You expect "me" to feel lucky -- ME?? I have 5 assignments to finish in 1 day- have a nosy  roommate - the  laundry wala  spoiled my expensive dress - one of my friends betrayed me last week- AND you expect ME to click on I AM FEELING LUCKY?????

How many of us actually feel lucky? 

Someone  feels tortured of having a nagging wife while some complain of not so ambitious husband. Some of us may have notorious and disobedient kids while and most of us have bad boss! And in which century are you that you expect us to feel lucky a midst such cases and complications...!

Are you feeling lucky enough reading this writeup??? If yes, I am obliged...and if not you MUST! You must because you are luckier than 3 billion people on this earth who cannot read at all. Wanna feel luckier ?? Read on what inspired me today - 

"If you have food in your fridge, clothes on your back, a roof over your head and a place to sleep you are richer than 75% of the world.
If you have money in the bank, your wallet, and some spare change you are among the top 8% of the wordl’s wealthy.
If you woke up this morning with more health than illness you are more blessed than the million people who will not survive this week.
If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the agony of imprisonment or torture, or the horrible pangs of starvation you are luckier than 500 million people alive and suffering. "

Even if I had to be a Mathematics jerk and  agree upon  the statistics with a pinch of salt,my mind somewhere agrees with rationale behind and my heart wants to believe to  what it wants to convey. May be I have not kept a track record of people killed in Libya or Syria owing to their  domestic problems, I may not have rechecked the figures from WHO, but I know while I am swimming in the fresh water happily, there are many who are dying out of thirst !

But ironically, we are so blind to be in the race of competition and so into a culture of greed , that we complain about our deprieved austerity, blame the unseen for our fate, dream of living  someone else's life and ridicule or forget the the beautiful things we have been gifted!! Like  "The Gift of  Life!" or ...........
 the "gifts" of life !!! ............................

.................The gift of hearing the melody of a bird singing and  the gift of seeing the seven colours of the rainbow. 

The gift to feel the peace in the music of gushing waterfall and gift of work. 

The gift of family and even if you don't have that -  the gift of  your own Life...! 

 And forgetting such gifts, ff you really  wanna  cry over the piece of land or a beautiful mansion you don't posses, Just think!
Won't you dream of having a palace and then the whole country after having that?? Is your happiness certain from such things ?? 

And if their lies no certainty and longevity of our happiness through such means, then why to cry  and crib about them ?? Why to cry over things that we don't have rather than feeling happy and thankful for what we do. ?

No, I am not asking you to become a Hermit or go to Himalayas for salvation( well, until you don't want to go there yourself) nor I am urging you to  stop working on your dreams,! YOU MUST NOT! YOU MUST GROW ! But how about growing up with happiness in heart and contentment in mind for what you already are gifted rather than cribbing and cringing  that grass on other side is greener??And as I would say..Why not be a Happy Miner rather than a Wandering Whiner ^_^!

Why not to stop for a moment, feel the breath, embrace the beauty and be thankful for being ourselves?? Imagine you  fall off a high  bridge  tonight,  , 3 seconds before being splashed in a deep river(you fear water and don't know how to swim!) you realize your last moment has come, being sharply splashed into a blue bed  is the last thing you see :  but some miracle saves you ! You next open your eyes amidst your loved ones with tearful eyes waiting for you to see them , first thing you feel is your own breath and the first surprise you get is that you are ALIVE ! the  You get a second life ...! rather Gifted a second life ..what would you make of your life now ?? Would you still hate it or be unhappy with it ?? 

And suddenly  I  recall a Persian proverb  which tells us more than I could... 

"While  I cried for not having the best shoe in the world , I saw a person having no feet..."

And I have no words left to say...



Lines come preaching

I still remember the day of my adolescence,  when one of my most beloved friends broke my trust. I was  hurt and disappointed , I cried back home and resolved I would never ever speak to her ever again. People wondered how the best friends were not seen talking to each other and when they asked me - I told them seriously- "That's not a thing worthy enough to be discussed about".

If I encounter-I would hate her..But perhaps not after writing these lines..


Someday...

        Sometime.....

                         If you can't forgive yourself for what you have done....

                            if you want  someone to forgive you for the wrong you did to someone ...

                                           

                                                    Forgive the ones - who did wrong to you ...!





                         
                                                       

Is something stopping you???



How many times has it happened when we know what we actually want but we don't have the courage to move ahead. When we dare to start but not to finish because our faliures tell us stop! So here's a message through my poem which my strength created when I was asked by my weakness to - STOP ...!

          What stops you??
            

 What stops you from climbing a mountain... , what strains you from facing the tide?               
                            .... Who bans you from conquering the darkness and inching towards the light.!                                                       
                         
 Who told you its pointless trying and whosoever said it was impossible for "you"
                           ......What refrains you from making the bridges and drinking water from the dew???

 If hurdles were impossible to overcome and sufferings  impossible to cure...
                             .... If only road-blocks  existed to set u aback ,winning wouldn't have been pure!

 If life was to only be pushed down in difficult times , what made you a  ^cut^ above the crowd?
                              ... Water wouldn't have made its way ..., sun shouldn't have shone between the clouds.!

 If only flowers bloomed in sunshine and your spirits danced in rain...
                              ...what  made you different from a "croaking frog" dancing in the rain??

 So, clap your hands and lift your soul , and kindle the fire on sim

                    rather than cursing the darkness..,
                         
                                lets light a candle         
                                                                            in dim!